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Friday, December 28, 2012

Refusing to Play Tarantino's Vengeance Game



(Spoilers throughout. Don't read unless you have seen it. Feedback welcome in the comments or on Facebook.)

The thing with Tarantino movies is that they expect you to play along with Quentin Tarantino's games. His eccentricities make movies interesting and makes his fans love him. I knew this going in, and I wanted to be able to play along with these games. But, about halfway through the movie I realized that I just couldn't do it anymore.

I'll start by talking about what I liked about the film. First, the movie is laugh out loud hilarious at points. The scene where the gang of raiders complain about not being able to see out of their sheet masks is one of the funniest movie scenes I've seen in while. It looked more at home in Blazing Saddles than this movie, and I think that is exactly what Tarantino was going for. The movie is expertly made, as Tarantino is one of the best filmmakers alive. Fans of Tarantino will notice his fingerprints all over this movie, and there are plenty of people that would call that a positive.

Now, let's get the Basterds and Django comparisons out of the way. I liked Basterds despite the graphic and brutal violence. Basterds was a lot of fun, it never took itself too seriously, and it was obviously falsified and over the top. There are a million movies about World War II that try to present themselves accurately, and those interested can learn about the War and the atrocities committed upon the Jewish people by the Nazis. Basterds makes no such attempt at being historically accurate, instead it presents a "What if?" view of history. Only the most ignorant person would think that Hitler died in a theater fire.

Django, it could be argued, presents the same "What if?" view without attempting to be historically accurate. However, the problem with that in this movie is the subject matter. Very few movies have been made properly addressing the plight of the slaves in the Antebellum South, especially recently. The wounds from this period are still festering to many in the South, and we as Americans have trouble talking about this period in a level-headed manner. Tarantino, to his credit, decided that it needed to be addressed. In fact, he said himself that he wanted to make this movie because no one addresses it in this fashion. The problem is the triviality with which he addresses it. In my opinion, it was fine for Basterds to trivialize World War II because people know enough of the details to understand what is false. In the case of slavery, the average person knows very little.

Important plot elements, like the idea of "Mandingo fighting" are presented as historical fact, and one that most people would not challenge. According to David Blight, the director of the Yale center for the study of slavery, these fights have no historical basis. The Mandingo fight is one of the most brutal movie scenes I've ever seen, up there with the wine bottle face smashing of Pan's Labyrinth, and the major thing proving the brutality of Leonardo DiCaprio's villain Calvin Candie.

What bothers me about using something like these fights as a way of showing the brutality of slavery is that slavery does not need to be made more brutal. Slavery is an abomination, a massive black eye on our country, and certainly not something that is in the past for most of the world. Scenes depicting the whipping and branding of Broomhilda, Django's wife, were brutal and accurate. They forced the audience to confront the evils of slavery. Those scenes bothered me in the exact way they were supposed to, Tarantino wants you know exactly why these men need to be killed.

But there is my biggest issue with this movie.Yes, the slave traders, owners, and overseers are extremely evil people. Yes, they deserve justice and the only way this justice could be meted out in this time period was by vigilante methods. But Django takes it so far that by the end you end up wondering why it had to be this way. As he walks through the mansion towards the end, stepping over mounds of bloody bodies, with blood splattered all over the walls, and heads blown open, the movie wants you to cheer. It wants you to smile at all the death he causes. It doesn't turn away as he shoots each victim, buckets of blood spurting out of their bodies. You hear every anguished cry, men go from strong manly men, to blubbering screaming idiots, and Tarantino makes sure you hear each and every pained cry.

The classic Western trope that justice must be done outside the bounds of the law is as old as the genre itself, my complaint isn't in the idea of vengeance. What bothered me was the idea of extreme vengeance. That we are somehow supposed to expect that Django is right in murdering what seems like hundreds of people in more and more brutal fashions. Yes Django was wronged, and yes his wife was more wronged, but the idea that blood demands more blood is one that is dangerous.

Django, although played well by Jamie Foxx, is a shockingly simple character at times. He is a highly talented shooter, a great actor, and is fighting for a noble cause, but his single minded approach is disappointing. Django married Broomhilda despite that not being a common slave practice. This is never explored in depth. Why did they decide to risk this, what made them want to run away together, and why is he so intent on finding her? The movie just expects you to understand why Django loves Broomhilda without explaining it.

There were two moments when I decided that I just couldn't go along with Tarantino's game anymore. The first is on the way to "Candieland" when a fighter tries to quit and Candie threatens him with the dogs. This was a testing moment for Django, as he needed to show that he was still a tough black slaver in order to get to see Broomhilda. The poor man is at the mercy of Django, and he allows the dogs to be loosed on the man without so much as blinking an eye. Although brutal and disturbing, audiences are expected to accept the fact that it was necessary in order to get to Broomhilda. However, I couldn't accept that. Django wasn't a sympathetic enough character, it is as if he doesn't really even think about the person's life he cost so he could save his wife. Now, innocent fellow slaves are dying for his quest and Django doesn't even bat an eye. This was when I lost all sympathy for Django.

After this atrocity, I figured the only proper way for the movie to end was with the heroic death of Django. The hero with the tragic flaw that would ultimately die in the quest of something unreachable. But Tarantino doesn't work that way.

The second moment where I literally shook my head in disappointment was the last massacre by Django. He returns to Candieland to finish the job that he wasn't able to complete earlier. He stands at the top of the stairs and kills the armed men first, of course in a very sadistic way. He then blows away Candie's sister; she literally flies backward out of the room. Candie's sister, while presiding over the plantation with her brother is never shown committing serious atrocities with her brother. It could be argued that she is as much trapped in her situation as any of the slaves, her odd and (more than) implied incestuous relationship with her brother reminds me of the relationship between Commodus and his sister in Gladiator. She probably couldn't get away from her situation without incurring the wrath of her brother, just like any of the slaves.

One of the final acts of our "hero" is blowing away an unarmed, defenseless woman. How does this make him better than the slave overseers who whipped his wife? One of the biggest problems with this whole scene is that many in the theater cracked up at it. Apparently, it was supposed to be funny.

Tarantino is a master at mixing violence, humor, and social commentary. But this subject material may just be too sensitive for something like this. It seems like Tarantino was overcompensating for being a white man making this movie. The only good white man in the movie is Christoph Waltz's character Dr. King Schultz, a German. The suggestion is that there were absolutely no American white people that were not slave owners, traders, overseers, or at best racist in the South in 1858. We need the European white man to save the black man so the black man can then save himself by killing every white person in the movie. And white audiences eat it up, unsure of what exactly we are allowed to laugh at, but knowing that we are definitely supposed to laugh at the white lady flying out of screen. Deciding when to laugh, when to be serious, and when to close your eyes (often) is tough when you have to do all three of those things at once.

Tarantino deserves credit for opening up the topic of American slavery for discussion again. Django is one of the most talked about movies of the year.

To sum it up, I feel that the topic of slavery is something that absolutely should be addressed. But it is something that needs to be addressed with a cool head. It is amazing that in a movie that almost runs for three hours, the message is so straightforward. Slavery is bad, white people cause slavery, black people are enslaved, therefore white people should die and die brutally.

I wanted to like this movie, I really did. I tried hard to find the positives in it. I told myself that it was just supposed to be fun, a violent satire in the mold of Basterds. But once again I return to the idea that World War II has been addressed in every way but in a "What if?" satire, American slavery hasn't. We don't want to talk about it, and now when we do, we talk about it in a cartoonishly violent and simple fashion.

The final scene features Django prancing on his horse as the mansion burns to the ground. I couldn't help but think that really it is Tarantino prancing, glad that he is burning everything you thought about taboos in movies to the ground. Maybe, Tarantino has re-opened the discussion about slavery and its atrocities and how we can get past these still festering wounds, but I fear that he has driven it deeper into the ground.


Here's a little humor to lighten the tone of this review.



Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Top 10 Albums of 2012

Because there aren't enough of these lists available online, and because I don't have anything like final papers or websites to finish, I compiled a list of my favorite albums of 2012.

So here they are, it's a pretty eclectic mix. Some were chosen because I absolutely love listening to them, others were chosen for the overall quality and importance. However, if I just didn't enjoy the album then I left it off despite the importance, looking at you channel ORANGE.

I had removed my reference to Aaron Bumgarner's inferior top ten list, but I will bring it back after reading his comments. His list is over on his blog.

Even though his list is obviously not as good, and I somehow have interfered with his time honored tradition of awarding the "Bummies" in September (no idea the logic there), you should read his just to compare.

Lets get started.

10. Coexist - the xx

Many of you would place the highly anticipated follow-up to a British band's 2009 debut album on this list, but most people would be referring to Babel by Mumford and Sons.

This follow-up to the xx's excellent self-titled debut album struggles to live up to the expectation of the first. While a solid album, one that could only be made by this group of three musicians, it becomes boring at times.

What is amazing about the first album is that they constantly skirt on the edge of monotony, but the percussion of Jamie xx and the sparse guitar and bass keep things moving at the perfect pace throughout. This album, tends to fall over that line sometimes.

However, this is still a great album made by a great band. They have made better and they will make something better in the future, but this is certainly something great to listen to until the day comes.

Best Song: "Chained"

9. Gravity - Lecrae

Fans of Reach Records and the 116 Clique may argue that Trip Lee's The Good Life was the better album from this crew this year. I disagree, but I can see where someone might think that.

This album is chosen for cultural significance as much as its quality. When released, it was the top seller on iTunes. It features a collaboration with "secular" rapper and frequent contributor to The Roots, Big K.R.I.T, and production from some big names in the industry. Despite the secular feel to some of it, Lecrae never backs down from his straight-forward, truth-telling lyricism. Songs such as "Walk With Me", "Falling Down", "Power Trip", and "Violence" are far cries from the days of "ridin with my top down listenin to this Jesus Muzik".

Lovers of rap may be able get over the lyrics and just enjoy the quality of this album, but they can't get away from the message. With little weak spots ("Higher") and great collaborations with his Reach Records partners, Gravity is the second best Hip-Hop album of the year.

Best Song: "Fallin Down(feat. Swoope and Trip Lee)"


8. Good kid, M.a.a.d city - Kendrick Lamar

Following up Lecrae comes the best Hip-Hop album of the year. Kendrick Lamar, a man who has publicly supported Lecrae's music, put out this highly anticipated album to incredible critical acclaim. Receiving ratings reserved only for the greatest rap albums ever, garnering a rare XXL rating from XXL magazine, I knew I had to listen to Lamar's album.

It is a concept album, through and through, in which the now 25 year old rapper takes us through the life of a 17 year-old Kendrick Lamar. The Compton rapper begins the album with a confession of faith that wouldn't be out of place in a Lecrae album. He continues, song after song, to hang out with friends, making bad decision after bad decision. Songs are interspersed with voicemails from his parents scolding him. It's like a movie, I don't want to ruin anything for you by telling you what happens. Since it is so linear, it is hard to pick the best song from the album.

Lamar doesn't skirt around explicit discussions of his behavior or obscene language, so don't get the idea that this is safe for kids or something. Which leads to some problems with the album.

My main problem is that I couldn't really figure out what Lamar's perspective was. Is he an acknowledged sinner asking for forgiveness? Or a teenager basking in the glories of his bad behavior? That may be the genius of this album, that it stands alone as a piece of art, ready to be pulled apart and dissected. I honestly can't say that I listen to this over and over again, but I don't watch long, complicated movies over and over again either. While I listen to Lecrae's album often, it is Lamar's that is the most significant Hip-Hop album of the year.

Best Song -Listen to the whole album or don't listen to it at all. I feel like individual songs are too out of context to be singled out.

7. Boys & Girls - Alabama Shakes

Let's switch gears from our two Hip-Hop albums to this gem of an album. Alabama Shakes formed in 2009, playing what is defined as "roots rock". I can't define roots rock, but I can listen to this album and know exactly what it is. Lead singer Brittany Howard, with a voice reminiscent of Janis Joplin, howls over groovy bass lines in an album that is a foot-stomping good time. This is an album I had heard about, but I had failed to listen to until recently. I'm mad that I've been missing out.

I love music that take you to a place or time period just with the music. Boys & Girls takes you to the American South in the 60s and 70s. Sounding like it was recorded in their garage (and if you know me, you know that's a good thing), Howard comes unhinged at times and the album is better when she does. This makes you want to jump out of your chair and dance. I've got a feeling this group is going to be making great music for a long time.

Best Song -"Hold On"


6. Blunderbuss - Jack White

Jack White's first solo album was just about what fans would expect from him: great.

White, who actually has worked with Alabama Shakes, came to fame as the guitarist and front man for The White Stripes. Although he was obviously the creative force of The White Stripes, it seems that the solo album allows him to explore all of his musical eccentricities to their fullest extent.

Some songs, such as "Sixteen Saltines" wouldn't sound out of place on Elephant while "Freedom At 21" and "Love Interruption" would only fit on Blunderbuss. As with all of Jack White's music, parts of this album sound like music from 1940 being made with today's technology. White could probably release an album of Son House and Robert Johnson covers and everyone would just assume they were songs he had written. Mixing his signature Detroit rock and blues with elements of country Blunderbuss is a solid album from one of the greatest artists in our time.

Keith Richards says in the recent Rolling Stones documentary "Crossfire Hurricane" that "Midnight Rambler" was the only Rolling Stones song that no one else could have written besides he and Mick Jagger. While that may be an exaggeration, I think the opposite applies to White. I don't know of anyone living that could write the songs that White does.

Somehow, White is very famous despite all of his eccentricities that would make his music seem inaccessible. Whether you love him or hate him, he is an incredibly unique artist in a world of cookie cutter rock stars.

5. Nothing's Gonna Change the Way You Feel About Me Now - Justin Townes Earle

If you haven't been listening to Justin Townes Earle, repent of your sins and start now. The son of well-known musician and songwriter Steve Earle, Justin began touring with his father as a teenager. Not only did he inherit musical ability from his dad, but also terrible drug habits and alcoholism. Now in his early 30s, those days are behind him, but the pain felt in his early years remains in his songs.

Earle is one of the finest songwriters alive today, writing incredibly honest and open songs about his life. Earle can't seem to escape the problems caused by his father ("Mama's Eyes" off of Midnight at the Movies is a great example of this and one of my all-time favorite songs), and his songs throughout his career have ached of a deep sadness. This is not to suggest that this album is a complete downer, songs like "Memphis in the Rain" and "Baby's Got a Bad Idea" have an upbeat feel to them.

Earle mixes country, blues, and folk into his music. It's the closest thing to country music that I listen to, so if you hate country you should at least give it a try.

I love quality music, I really appreciate great musicianship, but more than anything I listen to music for well-written lyrics. Justin Townes Earle's music has all of these qualities. I get the feeling that his songs come straight from his diaries, as each album seems like a different chapter in his life. The best song on the album "Movin' On" discusses his relationship with his parents again and he sings that he is "tryin to move on". For his personal sake, I hope he can. For his music's sake, I hope he continues to write about it the whole way through.

Best Song - "Movin' On"

4. Heaven - The Walkmen

The Walkmen is, without a doubt,  the best band that I have seen live in front of the Fred Jones Art Museum at OU for free (and the only one). Heaven is the latest effort from indie rock veterans.

I love this album because you can sense the growth that the band has made as artists in their decade of existence. These songs are introspective without being self-defeating. They are fun, without being silly.

"We Can't Be Beat" begins the album with a slow building song that ends with lead singer Hamilton Leithauser wailing over the signature guitar sounds of the Walkmen.

"Love is Luck" continues right where that song leaves off and the entire album just has a great feel about it. That may not be great musical analysis, but this is just an overall good album. This is the first Walkmen album without some serious missteps in it, (Lisbon has only a few however). The members of the band have grown up and made some seriously good music.

Leithauser has a unique voice that might turn some off, and his almost bored delivery in some songs is reminiscent of Julian Casablancas of the Strokes. But like Casablancas, it is when Leithauser lets go and becomes unhinged that he excels. Heaven is actually a little short on these type of songs, but "Heartbreaker" features a little bit of that old passion.

Best Song - "Heartbreaker"

3. My Head is an Animal - Of Monsters and Men

This debut album of an Icelandic folk band that sings about monsters, mountains, and mythical beings became a surprise hit this year. This was the soundtrack to my summer. A strong offering from start to finish, My Head is an Animal is chock full of great songs.

The album name comes from the second line in "Dirty Paws" and it tells you everything you need to know about the lyrics of this album. Coming from the isolated country of Iceland, lead singers Nanna Bryndís Hilmarsdóttir and Ragnar "Raggi" Þórhallsson (gosh, I love Icelandic names) sing songs about the things around them. I mean, I assume there are monsters in Iceland, right?

"Little Talks" has been everywhere, but don't rule out the rest of the album. "King and Lionheart", "Six Weeks" and "Mountain Sound" are all excellent songs. Using instruments ranging from glockenspiel to trumpet to guitar, the music is as unique as the lyrics. Maybe the best thing about this album is the feeling you get while listening to it. It's like being in a fairy tale, and you know you've always wanted to feel like that.

Best Song - "King and Lionheart"


2. Give Us Rest Or (A Requiem Mass in C [The Happiest of All Keys]) - David Crowder Band

This may come as a surprise to those of you who know that I don't usually enjoy Contemporary Christian music, but it shouldn't be surprising if you have heard this album.

What other band would use these elements in one album: Bluegrass, Rock, Gregorian Chants, a cover of a Kris Kristofferson song, and traditional church hymns, all set to the liturgy of a Requiem Mass? Only the breathtaking musicians of the David Crowder Band would even attempt something like this, and they pull it off expertly.

The final album of this incredible band had high expectations for fans that have followed the group for the previous six full-length albums. A Collision is, without a doubt, their best album previous to Give Us Rest, and I didn't know how a new record could compare. Coming off of their dance infused Church Music album, Give Us Rest returned to the roots of what made them popular, but it didn't take a step back. What makes DC*B so incredible is their constant progress in a genre so marked by staleness. Give Us Rest is the magnum opus of a group known for doing things uniquely and on a grand scale.

These Baptist boys from Waco, TX stayed as true as possible to the order of a Requiem Mass, even including Catholic prayers, but that doesn't mean they forgot where they came from either. The album ends as perfectly as any final offering of any band could, with five traditional church hymns that these guys likely grew up singing in church. For long time fans of the David Crowder Band, this album is a must. Likewise, if you have never heard a DC*B album, or even if you hate Christian music, I don't think you could come away from this album unimpressed with the ability and grand scale of the album.

Best Song - "Oh Great God, Give Us Rest"

1. Locked Down - Dr. John

In a musical year full of surprise new artists releasing surprisingly great albums, perhaps its fitting that a 72 year-old blues man who started making music in the 1950s put out the best album this year.

Any biography of Dr. John I could give you wouldn't do the man justice, you are going to have the learn about him yourself. Despite his vast musical experience, by most accounts his music has become stagnant over the last few years.

Enter Dan Auerbach of the Black Keys (full disclosure: my favorite band), who produced and played guitar on the album. This combination couldn't have been better. Also helping on the album were a host of top musicians, complimenting Dr. John's signature keyboard work.

Locked Down makes me feel like I should be committing a crime in 1940. Or it might make you think you are hunkered down in a small, dingy, smoky New Orleans VooDoo shop. You don't smile when you listen to this, you put on a sinister face and you nod your head.

"Locked Down" starts everything off right, like the rest of the album, with a decidedly old school feel complimented by something that lets you know that it is still, somehow, 2012.

Dr. John's voice is sinister, creepy, accusatory and at times even tender. This album has New Orleans coursing through it in every song. "Revolution" has big horns making you want to get up and move, keeping your stank face the whole time, of course. Speaking like a true Cajun on songs like "Kingdom of Izzness", Dr. John discusses subject matter that only a Cajun could understand. "Eleggua" is a funky, absolutely unintelligible song about a VooDoo god. The sinister Dr. John is turned up to 11 on that song, I swear he is singing in Creole or Cajun because he says nothing close to an English word the whole song.

However, that is the last taste you get of the creepy, sinister Dr. John on the album. It finishes with "My Children, My Angels" and "God's Sure Good", the latter a gospel inspired hymn about God's provision throughout his life. This is a man who has spent plenty of time on the seedier side of life, he gave up guitar at 21 after losing a part of his finger to a gunshot. However, he praises God for being so good to him and saving his soul, when it was "all I had to sell".

I would say something about an old dog learning new tricks, but I don't think that's what has happened here. I think, with the help of Dan Auerbach and others, Dr. John has just rediscovered what made him great to begin with. Without this album, I likely would have only heard of Dr. John in passing, but with  Locked Down he has created a new generation of fans.

Best Song- "Revolution"


Honorable Mentions: Babel - Mumford and Sons, The Good Life - Trip Lee, Rhythm and Repose - Glen Hansard, Giants - Ivy Mike, Blak and Blu - Gary Clark Jr.

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Romance and Magic

  

 As I pedalled back to the house alone, hands frozen, legs sore, bike creaking, I thought to myself:

Things never end the way we think. There is no romance.

    I guess I should back up and explain the situation. I am, or should I say was, in a group called the Soonermen here at OU. We dress up in hand-painted Superman shirts and capes to attend OU football games. We sit on the front row of every home game, and to do that we have to get to games pretty early. We head to games together on our bikes in what is one of the most fun and memorable rituals of Soonermen.
    As a sophomore (my first year riding with the Soonermen, we used to have to earn the chance after our freshman year), I remember watching the seniors on their last ride and seeing a group of men that had been riding together for years. These guys soaked up every last moment as if they were graduating at the end of the game. This may seem silly, after all we are just a bunch of 18-23 year olds dressed up in capes and crazy hats, but there is a camaraderie there that is present in any number of things that involves guys doing stupid things together. As such, all things must come to an end, and that end is always going to be bittersweet.
    When I envisioned my last ride as a Soonerman, I didn’t envision it this way. I imagined a large group of us, guys I had been riding with for three years, smiling and taking in every moment, reminiscing about the good times and looking forward to another Sooner beatdown of Oklahoma State. I didn’t imagine that we would have less than half of our usual numbers. I didn’t imagine that all of the guys I started the “Mustache Mafia” with my freshman year would be gone, having traded the cape for the Gameday Polo, and the bike ride for the tailgate. And I certainly didn’t imagine that I would be riding back to the house alone because I forgot my bag with my ticket and things in it. Riding back may have taken a total of four minutes, but in those cold minutes alone I became a little jealous of my friends in their fleeces enjoying barbecue.
    That’s when I realized that there is no romance. Things aren’t going to end up like I imagined them. This isn’t a movie. Maybe I should have realized that when our 39 game home win streak was snapped last year. Or when our epic game against Notre Dame ended in defeat. I dreamed about that game ever since I heard it was on the schedule and it didn’t end up like I imagined, so why should this game be any different? Sooner Magic is something everyone talks about here in Norman, but not something that has been present in my time as a student.
    Sooner Magic, if it ever existed, must be a thing of the past.
    I caught back up with my fellow Soonermen and we continued our chilly ride. It was exciting, as usual, and I was ready for the game. The negative feelings I had faded as we rushed into the stadium to our normal spots. We get to hold the “Play Like a Champion Today” banner as the players run out, and as part of that we get pre and post-game Sideline Passes. Before we hold the banner we go to the practice field to make sure we have everything down. On the practice field we have plenty of time to relax and mess around. This time, we decided to play imaginary football. We lined up as many people as we could on each side of the ball and ran plays just like our sporting heroes were about to do. I’m sure we looked like fools, but we always look that way. It was also one of the most fun things I’ve done in a while. For 10 minutes, a bunch of young adults dressed like children got to act even more childlike than normal. It was a welcome relief as we were about to experience the most stressful game of our life.
    Down 17-3 early in the game to our little brother from Stillwater, those negative feelings started to creep back in. I knew that we were capable of scoring enough to come back and win, but I also knew that I have watched this team for four years and they rarely have the ability to come back and win in this way (Big 12 Championship vs Nebraska notwithstanding). OU tied the game at halftime and the nerves subsided, until the first play from scrimmage for OSU after the half went for a touchdown. The game went back and forth with pendulum swings like a giant grandfather clock. One thing I have said in the past was that OU just doesn’t get unexpected, great plays in the clutch. Things like a blocked field goal, or a kickoff return for a touchdown. That is the mark of a team with “magic”, and we just don’t have that. Well, we didn’t until Jalen Saunders broke off a remarkable 81-yard punt return for a touchdown to tie the game (after a 2 point conversion) at the beginning of the fourth quarter. But, of course, there was a flag down. I wasn’t even surprised as I saw the yellow flag fly.
    That’s typical.   
    But wait, the officials waved off the flag. I could now go crazy like the rest of the stadium already was.
    Maybe there is something to this magic.
    A frantic fourth quarter that culminated on a dominant, legacy defining six minute drive led by Landry Jones and finished off by Blake Bell did nothing good to my heart’s health, but it did something great to my mind’s. As amazing as that drive was, overtime still had me fretting. The negative side of me knew that their kicker, Quinn Sharp, is as automatic as they come. I still didn’t know if we were the team that made mistakes in the clutch or made plays. Despite all the evidence to the contrary in the last two games I just needed one more confirmation that we had finally turned that corner as a team. Leaning on my fellow Soonermen for every offensive play by OSU in their first possesion, I was beside myself when we forced them to kick a field goal.
    We’ve got this, just don’t screw it up!
    A straight ahead run by Trey Millard for a good gain was encouraging, and at second down and short I told those around me that we should take a shot at the end zone. Then, as if to prove my offensive coordinating days are a long way away, we handed the ball to Brennan Clay. Clay, who had struggled all day, ran it up the middle.
    Classic, I’ve seen this play before.
    Clay disappeared into the line, but like Houdini combined with a Mack Truck, he reappeared and exploded out of the line of behemoths and into an OSU defender. The poor Cowboy never had a chance. Clay reached the second level of defenders and fought his way to the end zone to win the game. The party had begun.
    My last home game as a student at OU ended with an 18 yard run by a struggling running back in the only overtime game in the 107 years of the Bedlam series.
    Magic.
    Using the privileges granted us as Soonermen, we stormed onto the field soon after the game. The players rushed over to the student section to celebrate. The student section, full and joyous at the end of a game for the first time I can remember, was beside themselves. Blake Bell ran over to us and I stupidly stuck my hand out for him to slap. I think all 6’6” and 254 lbs of him went into this high five. For once, I was glad that it was cold because I could barely feel my hands anyway.
    Standing on the field looking up at the student section, “Jump Around” began to blare through the speakers. I had heard about the legendary “Jump Around” moment from the Texas Tech game in 2008, and by this point in my life I had resigned myself to the fact that I would never experience anything like in the student section. I was right, I experienced it on the field. The stadium was bouncing and so was I. I stopped for a second to soak it all in and that’s when I realized something:
    Maybe there is such a thing as romance.
    Sure, if I could have planned out this day it would have looked totally different, but I couldn’t have made it better. So as I trade my Soonerman shirt for a Gameday polo, I don’t regret all the extra time I put in as a Soonerman. Yeah, I wish the days of games weren’t such hassles, but I can tailgate for the next 60 years of my life. For four years I was able to live out a childhood dream of being a crazy college football fan, and I was richly rewarded for it.
    Maybe this is a bunch of ink spilled over something stupid like wearing a cape to a football game, but as I graduate in May and have no idea what life looks like a year from now, I know that I will be able to look back at this and learn. Things didn’t work out like I thought they would, but at the end of the day I can look back and realize that they worked out better than I could have planned. Maybe there is some romance out there, and if you wait long enough there might just be some magic too.